As children of divorce, we did not choose our parents’ separation in the way that a missionary volunteers to go on mission. However, if we choose to embrace our union with Jesus in being torn asunder, then we can begin to experience “the pain of that separation” as a kind of “personal vocation.” In union with Jesus crucified, the pain of being torn asunder can be transfigured.

Upon entering religious life, I tried to hide in the coping mechanisms that had worked for me growing up, such as people-pleasing and anticipating others’ needs. I desired to please the Lord, could follow community customs and was good at serving others. Not only was I good, but was praised for my attentiveness to the needs of others and my generosity in service. As I continued further in formation, those coping mechanisms started to unravel and the truth of the pain I was in surfaced.